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You’re Ideas Don’t Matter? This take always irks me, though I do love the closing line: "You can [...] spend your life [fighting over] golden eggs [...], or you can learn how to become a goose who lays golden eggs." I love the abundance mindset; just be prolific.

But I don't love the "fuck originality" attitude. It feels like a node in the creativity-for-beginners canon—along with The Taste Gap and All You Need is Vibes—a consolation to prevent a new artist from quitting. And I suppose that is worthwhile. You can't be terribly concerned with technique or originality if you don't have momentum, the general contours of a practice.

But to say that creativity is only "remixing, rearranging, reimagining, and recombining" is to plant a meme that can constrict creativity long past its usefulness. I don't totally disagree—yes, all ideas have a lineage of influence, and most big ideas are reframes of old ones for a new context—but the issue is in being too conscious about it. To see creativity as the controlled combination of elements is to see the creative process like a mechanical assembly line. It ushers in factoid harvesting and Frankenstein stitching. This kind of recycling is halmark slop, the kind of thing that LLMs do.

And again, that is totally fine for L1 or L2 or whatever, but the goal—or at least, my goal—is to transcend that. Originality isn't an old virtue to shed, it's the thing to strive for. It takes a lifetime to get there, decades of dedication, and that is a hard promise to make to a reader who has a time horizon of next week. But what is it that you should strive for if not originality? Instead of combining ideas in an A+B=C kind of way, you want to melt and fuse them all in your subconscious, in an unpredictable, high-voltage kind of way, to create an output that is incalculable, one that of course has nods to works from before it, but one without a formula, and one that could have only been crafted from your own mind. Is originality not the same thing as make the thing that only you can make?

The tongue of the muse! A surreal experience in the shower just overcame me. It was something like a stream consciousness reception, line by line, enacted through and almost creepy mumbled Brisith accent (as if I can only access the Source through a character), and coherent words and ideas would emerge as if no planning or involvement with my own conscious thought or intention. “Pettiflicks," was just one of the hundreds of words I invented. They all seemed to cohere in the moment, but were probably nonsense. Even if it truly was unintelligible, I find myself filled with hope that inside me is some alien non-Self, a continent of shadow figures that, if I learn to tap into, can write through me, as if they are conduits between my soul and the page without me in the way (obvious source of inspiration here is Pessoa). This all sounds quite esoteric as I type it, and I suppose I do fear the realms of mysticism and possession that come with "automatic writing," but my shower session felt more playful and critical, almost Shakespearean, void of malice or evil. Exiting the state, there was some residual enthusiasm. When I went back to my wife, she asked me of the weather, which triggered a whole performance: “27! ... the 27th ... of April! ... at 11:03 ... and then I ran to the window and threw it open, let out a long dramatic sniff, and screamed "53 degrees!" and was only off by 2.

It is commonly reported that ideas come to people in the shower; sometimes, musical operas comes to me when I shower: imagine a 7-part rock opera, a single riff in different tempos and tones, where part 6 is some Jim Morrison dialogue from “The End,” where the drummer has eighth notes on the ride and is doing jazz fills on tom with his left hand, the bassist is in the pocket, guitar is 12th fret and up playing non-sense at volume 1 with a wah pedal, and there’s dialogue like: “Aeschylus, my son, did you find 17 gummies under your pillow?” “Yes, father.” “Aeschylus, did you know those were all intended for the gummy fairy?” “Yes, father.” “And you ate them?” “Yes, father.” “And you saw the mystery?” “Yes, father.” “Aeshcylus, my son, you know what happens when children see the mystery?” (instrumental freakout ensues) and by this point I am naked and thrashing and have completely forgotten about soap.